Confidence

WHEW CHILE when I tell y'all my confidence was in the dumps for so long, I forgot how amazingly, beautiful it feels to be confident and assured. ⁣⁣
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This week was full of confirmations that I'm going to be okay, I'm coming into my own and I'm slipping out of the strong grips of deeply saddening grief.⁣⁣
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I worked hard, had some dope meetings, been running around the city with my head held high. Even tested this confidence thing by running errands with no makeup & no bra one day 😆, just doing a conscious exercise to free myself from worrying about what other people think and to be comfortable!!! For me that was a HUGE TEST and I passed lol ⁣⁣
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How did I get here? Well let me tell ya...⁣⁣
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I had a talk with my brother Ryan while I was in Washington DC and it sparked SUCH an energy shift for me after we talked. It's like I had an epiphany and a huge weight was lifted from my soul. The conversation was not an easy one to have [I cried a lot] but in the end I was beyond THANKFUL that in that moment, I was willing to LISTEN and let him really pour into me and tell me that I cannot live my life worrying about what everybody else thinks. I've heard it a lot before, especially from my husband, but it was time to really hear what a lot of my loved ones have been trying to say. I talked about it a lot in therapy too. I’ll share more about that later...⁣⁣
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But I realize that some people may never have a brother in their corner looking out for them, so I'm taking the time right now to say this to you: You got this. You cannot live your life predicated on what you 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐊 people are going to think... because in most cases you're just all in your head thinking the worst. Everybody has a million things going on in their lives and they probably aren't even thinking about you like that! LOL Live your life!!! I repeat Live 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 life! Figure out a way to enjoy it. Breathe deeper, think wiser and be present. Take moments to just feel free and do something 𝐘𝐎𝐔 want to do. Prioritize tasks and time with the ones you love [including yourself] so you can spend the precious time you have here as best you can. ⁣⁣
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Sending love & light to you all today!