After 20 months of living in our hometown of Kansas City, we have moved back to LA!
These past 20 months have been a season for me to really get my mind & spirit in a better place. Losing my mom hit me HARD. I will never be able to find the words to explain the pain I experienced having to become a mother, while losing my mother, during my first pregnancy. I tried my best to keep it together, but in the end, I just wanted to come home. I didn't want to push the pain to the back of my mind. I wanted to deal with it. I wanted to feel what I needed to feel & face reality head on, so that I could be fully present as a mother for my child. Kenny & I loved living in LA. We had been there 11 years, but I was at a breaking point & I knew I needed to do something. I'm so proud of myself for doing this! These months of deep work & sacrifice will be worth it for the rest of my life!
It's been A LOT of soul searching. A lot of beautiful, gentle patience from my husband @Kenny_Jackson & I am FOREVER thankful for his loyal love.
I spent a lot of time in our home, in my own little bubble, just trying to figure things out. Spent a lot of time not only mothering my son, but mothering the ME within. My confidence was shot, making decisions & dealing with family without my mom being here to step in was hard. I experienced more heartache than I could have ever expected, but I was determined to figure out a way to get better & be stronger.
Through it all, we were able to spend some beautiful, quality time with our family. See my son bond with so many cousins, aunts & uncles. I was able to go to grief counseling. I was able to work from home the entire time I was there. I was able to figure out what I want out of life & how I'm going to navigate through this new normal.
So with that, I say, Kansas City, you were so good to me. Thank you for being a source of comfort & healing. My journey to seek peace led me all the way back to my roots, the place that raised me up & rebuilt me again. I will be forever thankful.
And LA, thank you for welcoming us back with open arms & endless opportunities. I'm thankful & excited.
We are thrilled to be back!